I tend to have great periods of time where I am active here and then long periods where I lie dormant. Writing has always been the method in which it is easiest for me to portray my inner thoughts and feelings. Over the last couple of years I have gone through so much change that my mind could barely keep up. I have been wanting to write but when I would sit down to start typing one thought would turn to another and I was left with a big jumbled mess. I decided I needed to rebrand myself here. So, I archived most of my older posts and decided to start new. I began with designing my logo:
I truly hope you all love it as much as I do, and if you don’t I will still continue to love it. I decided to title this first post Entering Into a New Life because that is exactly what I am doing. I have been setting healthier boundaries in every aspect of my life. Work included. By doing this I have lost so much, especially with my business. It is on the dying end and as much as that scares me to death, I am ok with it. I have been ushered into a space where I can continue to do the same things and expecting a different result (definition of insanity) or I can be brave and do things completely differently. Shake things up and live the way I am called to.
These new ways of being have me challenging myself to truly know who I am. Asking questions like “when I look at my life, how do I envision it? What am I doing? What are my beliefs? What is my purpose/my calling?” A lot of these questions have been making me realize that I have spent so much of my life molding to other peoples views of what my life should be and look like. What I felt they wanted me to be. I tried to fit my enormity into a box that it just would never fit into. because of this I lost sight of myself. What my true desires are. My main question lately is: What do I want? Such a simple question that has me on a journaling journey to discover just that. Every time I connect to my cards or the Divine to ask for guidance I get two answers. Do what I truly love, what makes me feel alive. And the second is to take care of myself the way I take care of those I love. This is what I am starting on.
One big lesson I am learning is to say no. No when I am feeling low on energy, feeling drained. No when I really don’t want to do something but I am because I feel pressured to. Saying no to work when I am having a day where I can’t give even half of what I have left in me. This one new boundary is always losing me some things, but on the flip I feel alive today. I feel like that numbness I have had over the past few months is going away. I feel more rested and alert. I can sit and write/create with ease. I feel blocks starting to lift and I feel life being restored.
I don’t know what the future holds for me but I am sitting tall and proud in who I am and I am taking huge leaps of faith as I learn to truly trust. Thank you for coming on this journey with me! More to come.
Always in Love and Light,
p.s. It felt really great to hear, and feel, my keyboard clicking away ❤