I would like to start this off by saying I am not trying to paint my mother as a monster. She was, and is, a mentally unwell person. When I was younger, and up to about 2 years ago, she was a monster in my mind. But now, I can see why she was theContinue reading “My Story, The Creation of my Psyche”
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Eyes Open, Eyes Closed
Eyes Open, Eyes closed. As I walk through this life. My heart, a vast trove that spills like the oceans upon a rocky beach. Bubbly waters finding there way into every orifice of the earth that it touches. When I love, When I give my love, I give it completely. I love with a fiercenessContinue reading “Eyes Open, Eyes Closed”
Love is My Lifeforce
I have always loved romance movies and novels. Being swept away by a love so intense that it makes the whole world fade away. I made a profound realization this evening that I have never made before. I watched a movie on Netflix called After, this isn’t a review, honestly, I watch the sappiest ofContinue reading “Love is My Lifeforce”
Morning, October 8th, 2019
As the sun was setting I could feel my body relaxing, night has always brought peace to me where the energy of the day never can. My dreams have been many the last couple nights, I had decided to sleep with a polished chunk of labradorite that I have had for years. As I driftedContinue reading “Morning, October 8th, 2019”
Shall I Finally Write?
As I sit here, sleep drawing nearer and nearer, all I can think of is typing. I have been feeling such an immense pull to write the last few months. So strong that anything else I do feels unsatisfying. So, here I am, fingers on the keyboard, eyes on the screen, heart open. What isContinue reading “Shall I Finally Write?”
My Life Focus, Art
Good morning, all my lovely readers, I am inspired. Life inspired. I have struggled with ‘who am I?’ and ‘why am I here?’ for my entire life. Over the past couple of months, I have gone through some drastic changes in my life, and my outlook on life. One of the first lessons I wasContinue reading “My Life Focus, Art”
Empty Explanations
I wish I could explain how much anger and frustration hurts me, How it breaks me down into some hollow shell of a being, How it turns my heart black. I wish I could explain the way my heart breaks when my children don’t want me around, Or my very presence seems to annoy them.Continue reading “Empty Explanations”
I Am Lake Natron
I am being swallowed, consumed, by a blackness that I cannot escape. I feel it hanging heavily from every limb and organ of my body. I am like the Lake Natron, A beautifully deadly water, I will turn you into a calcified corpse. Maybe I myself am just that. Where Medusas stare once held me,Continue reading “I Am Lake Natron”
Victory in The Small Things
My mind is tired, body sore. My cat’s purr rumbles like mini earthquakes through my flesh. Almost ready, to stretch my body and put my mind at ease. Flowing Flowing Flowing Breathing Breathing Breathing I meditate on the movements of my sore tired body. These small moments, Where I push through. Push even though I’mContinue reading “Victory in The Small Things”
Breathing Life
Life is the sun on my face through a passing window, A hot cup of tea on an icy cold day, Breath in my lungs, Love in my heart. I feel the glitter of goosebumps on my skin. Every breath deeper and deeper, My stress melts away. And the heaviness falls, Like the avalanche ofContinue reading “Breathing Life”
