life

Using My Disorder To Heal

I am in a heavy space. The demons of my past weighing heavily on my present state. All I want to do is run, to hide, to wait for the danger to dissipate before letting the light shine upon my face once again. I am faced with ideals and conditioning that have been placed inContinue reading “Using My Disorder To Heal”

Being Selfish

When I take care of and love myself all blessings come to me.

Entering Into a New Life

I tend to have great periods of time where I am active here and then long periods where I lie dormant. Writing has always been the method in which it is easiest for me to portray my inner thoughts and feelings. Over the last couple of years I have gone through so much change thatContinue reading “Entering Into a New Life”

My Story, The Creation of my Psyche

I would like to start this off by saying I am not trying to paint my mother as a monster. She was, and is, a mentally unwell person. When I was younger, and up to about 2 years ago, she was a monster in my mind. But now, I can see why she was theContinue reading “My Story, The Creation of my Psyche”

Eyes Open, Eyes Closed

Eyes Open, Eyes closed. As I walk through this life. My heart, a vast trove that spills like the oceans upon a rocky beach. Bubbly waters finding there way into every orifice of the earth that it touches. When I love, When I give my love, I give it completely. I love with a fiercenessContinue reading “Eyes Open, Eyes Closed”

Love is My Lifeforce

I have always loved romance movies and novels. Being swept away by a love so intense that it makes the whole world fade away. I made a profound realization this evening that I have never made before. I watched a movie on Netflix called After, this isn’t a review, honestly, I watch the sappiest ofContinue reading “Love is My Lifeforce”

Morning, October 8th, 2019

As the sun was setting I could feel my body relaxing, night has always brought peace to me where the energy of the day never can. My dreams have been many the last couple nights, I had decided to sleep with a polished chunk of labradorite that I have had for years. As I driftedContinue reading “Morning, October 8th, 2019”

Shall I Finally Write?

As I sit here, sleep drawing nearer and nearer, all I can think of is typing. I have been feeling such an immense pull to write the last few months. So strong that anything else I do feels unsatisfying. So, here I am, fingers on the keyboard, eyes on the screen, heart open. What isContinue reading “Shall I Finally Write?”

My Life Focus, Art

Good morning, all my lovely readers, I am inspired. Life inspired. I have struggled with ‘who am I?’ and ‘why am I here?’ for my entire life. Over the past couple of months, I have gone through some drastic changes in my life, and my outlook on life. One of the first lessons I wasContinue reading “My Life Focus, Art”

Empty Explanations

I wish I could explain how much anger and frustration hurts me, How it breaks me down into some hollow shell of a being, How it turns my heart black. I wish I could explain the way my heart breaks when my children don’t want me around, Or my very presence seems to annoy them.Continue reading “Empty Explanations”